"Seeking" Inspiration

I've been caught in this uncomfortable cycle for a while.....where it feels like you're on the edge of a transition, a new alignment....but felt like the road in front of me had fallen into a pit and I just couldn't get "there" from "here". 

So I've spent literally days "seeking" inspiration, I've been reading, meditating, praying (YES, I pray....said in my best Ouiser Boudreaux voice) thinking that "inspiration" would come to me like a lightening bolt from the sky and that suddenly everything would be clear.....the road would appear and the virtual GPS of my life would give out loud turn by turn directions to fulfillment and happiness.

Over the last couple of days and last night in particular, I realized that "seeking" inspiration is like "seeking" rain.  It comes when it comes....and it doesn't when it doesn't, quite simple really.  I came to realize that there are long stretches of drought....and in those times you find inspiration in very small things.  Watching a movie quietly with a friend.....and hearing that one ridiculous line that makes you say....."Yep, that's it for today.....and that's good enough."

I'm anticipating a monsoon of inspiration, and it will come.  In the meantime, a sprinkle here and there is fine.  I'm going to stop seeking.....I'm going to start listening...for thunder in the distance, for that glorious smell of rain before the storm....the reminders that inspiration is out there we just have to quiet ourselves and sometimes stop 'seeking'.

Sometimes, you just have to remember Rule #32......Enjoy the little things.